Do you still feel the magic of Christmas?

So I've ended the poll a day early because I really want to know if you still get that wonderful feeling of magic when it's Christmas. It seems like you want me to post photographs and some personal stuff, and that's good, because that's the two things I'm best at. I don't know anything about fashion, or what celebrities did when, or the best ways to a thinner you, etc.

Yesterday, my littlesister and I had a game/movienight, she made us dinner, and we cleaned the whole appartment while listening to Christmas songs. It was so much fun! And today my boyfriend is coming to visit! I'm so happy I could fly! So the plans for today is eating a good breakfast + tea, finish cleaning my room, decorate for Christmas, take a long shower, make dinner, and be with my boyfriend.

Love pt. 2

I miss you so much that it hurts.

I miss you so much that want to scream.

I miss you so much that I don't know what to do with myself.

I know that you won't read this, because I'm not ready to share my inner thoughts with you yet, but I need to get it off my chest before it explodes. I love you. I need you. I don't know what I would do without you. I'm an independent woman, but I would be lost without you. I wouldn't know how to live my life, and I wouldn't know how to be me.

I'm scared by my feelings towards you. They're so intense, and I've never experienced anything like it before. I've had crushes, but nothing compares to this. I don't know what to do with these feelings, other than to feel them. I would put my life at risk for you, if I had to..

It's funny because I've always thought that people who say "I love him/her" after being with him/her for just a few months were silly, and now I'm one of them. I'm one of the idiots who think that they'll be together with their boyfriend forever. And I really hope I will. I don't think I'll ever find a better guy..

"I'll never let go, Jack. I promise."

Love, dreams and insecurities.

It's weird how my heart skips a beat everytime i get a textmessage from him. I get an intense feeling of happiness, and I get butterflies in my stomack. My head goes spinning and I get an automatic smile on my face.

I've been dreaming of him lately. And oppose to the dreams I've had before, I remember every one of them. It's really weird. It's usually two different kinds of dreams, but I don't think I want to share them with random blogreaders and the two friends who read my blog. It's a little too private to share, I think.

Anyway.. I've been really girly the last month. Insecure. My boyfriend has been sort of short in the texts he sends me, and they have been further apart than before, and even though he makes sure to write that he loves me, I thought that maybe he didn't. It turned out that he had his exams (11!!), and I think he was a little freaked out over it. He hasn't said anything about it though, and I didn't tell him how I felt, and now I'm SO glad I didn't! I feel so stupid, and horrible that I could even think that. He passed 9 of them by the way, and I couldn't be more proud of him..

If you don't like to read about happy couple stuff, you should stop reading here;)

I just have to say that I think I am the luckiest girl in the universe! Not only is my boyfriend the kindest, most beautiful (or should I say handsome?:P) and smartest guy in the world, but he is also funny, sensitive, manly, generous, and mature. He is pretty shy but he still knows how to talk to people, he is able to listen to the things I say without asking the wrong questions, and he is funny without even trying. And the best thing of all; he loves me.

For you who wonders why I write about textmessages; We're in a long distance relationship. It's hard sometimes, but it works for us. At least for now..

Oh, and none of us likes to be in front of the camera:P

Girlygirl

I feel like such a girl today. First; I read a blog where a couple anounced their engagement, and I actually started sobbing. I just couldn't stop crying. It's probably because I miss my boyfriend so much. We're in a long distance relationship, and that is really hard sometimes. But it's worth it. Then; I ate my weight in ice-cream, while listening to girly songs such as this one. Now; I'm watching In her shoes, with a cup of green tea with honey, Marie Claire , and my laptop in front of me. Later; I'll have a quick spa-night, before I go to bed.

When do you feel like a girlygirl, or what do you do to feel girly?